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時間表

中學時的時間表是根據考試而安排的;
大學時的時間表是根據藝術節和電影節安排的;
現在的時間表是根據別人的時間表而安排的;

出走時,没有時間表,但不見得自主。
更多時是適應環境,順應環境,做該做的事而不是想做的事。

不過,當時的確有一份向前邁進的生命力
而這份生命力自我回家(或工作﹖)以來漸漸微弱,
很土...說不下去。
唔,好幾次尋求新沖擊不成功,現在變懶惰。

明天再檢討

1 comment:

Popopope said...

it is another motivation problem. Usually if you have a goal, then a plan, then stick to it, evaluate (critically or emotional), weight the feeback.... many things la. So why don't you join our tue meeting, have fun first.
Also see ah tong 's blog, she is the same as you, quite flat but the MA show and meeting friend gave her a few sparks.
Bad experience is an experience afterall. Do not complain about nothing---"deadness". What is you want? Seems like the ultimate unsolved mystery but mmmm....not really.